I feel like I am falling apart. Literally. My body just
aches- it’s the worstest. Last night I was so excited to climb into bed, curl up
with my blankets, and have a restful night’s sleep… I spent the night wide awake. I tried problem
solving. First thought- My body needed food. When life gets stressful and busy
I forget to eat, and my stomach has been hating me of late. Yesterday my day
consisted of a banana and a bagel. So at 1 30 in the morning I made a trip
downstairs and had a quick snack. Back up to bed- nutrients in store. No luck. 2
00. Still wide awake. The math started. If I fall asleep now I will get 4 ½ hours
of sleep. I switched directions in my bed (my head where my feet were) with the
hope that having the wall on the other side would help. It gave me a whole new
perspective of my room but no sleep. At 2 30 I resorted to music. Maybe I was
just thinking too much. I listened until my computer ran out of battery. No
luck. By 3 30 I gave in and got IBprofen. My body was still aching and I couldn’t
get comfortable. (side note: I am not a fan of taking medicine when I am sick,
I have this thought that if I only use it when I absolutely need it, it will
work better…) I am sad to say it didn’t help. I laid in my bed watching the
hours tick by. 5 o’clock came. 1 ½ hours if I fall asleep. Thoughts of waking
up and going to the gym crossed my mind. What else was I going to do with the
extra time? Reality check: Ellie, your body hurts, you didn’t sleep a wink-
what in the world are you thinking?! So I laid there and watched out my window
as the sky changed colors- I finally accepted the fact that I was not going to
sleep. It was beautiful and peaceful. I had no problem getting out of bed in
the morning (one advantage to being wide awake all night) and was ready with
time to spare.
Dear body,
You are not allowed to do that again. We need all the sleep we can get. deal?
Sincerely,
A very weary Ellie
Dear body,
You are not allowed to do that again. We need all the sleep we can get. deal?
Sincerely,
A very weary Ellie
Ellie I just quickly read through the last like 5 posts and can I say how impressed I am with your running obsession that I feel started freshman year! ha You look soooo good and I'm jealous of your ability to run that much! Hope all is well!!!
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